while he's away

day 124 , those who said they’ll be there .. really dont care.

“whenever you need me, just let me know.” had become something that people just say when another is going through a rough situation. and thats something I learned the past week.

I know when I say this I mean it. and if I ever said this to anyone, know that you can always count on me.

the days are just getting harder to deal with. right when I thought it was getting easier .. just about two months left but it just seems never ending.

I feel like I felt a depressive breaking point. little by little this deployment is showing me hours much we really mean to each other.

I’m ready to have him home. I’m sorry to say it but seeing all you other couples all happy and stuff, its breaking my heart . all I can do is wish he could be here for all the moments hes missing.

and I’m pretty much over the whole, “I’ve been through something similar .. ” I’m sorry your “similar” cannon be compared.

this week I thought about one of my friends , jessica valentin. shes going through the same situation but I can only imagine how much harder it must be for her because she is running an amazing business and raising an amazing little boy. I am constantly praying for this family that God give them the strength they need to get through this. jesse, I know this is just a little obstacle in our way in the path of the rest of our lives with our military men <3